Monday

Didn’t snowboard much, and I’m grateful for that. Considering giving it up as a hobby – I don’t get enough out of it to justify the cost. I don’t really want to get more out of it either. Some of the folks we were with were really passionate about snowboarding, and that helped me see that it just isn’t something I really care about. Whatever. It’s not like it matters.

Snowboarding

I’m going snowboarding for a week in NH. In a cool little town called Lincoln.

I’ve been snowboarding for a long time. Nearly a decade, but I’m still kind of unsure about it as a hobby. On the one hand, I’m kind of lazy, and an entire day of physical activity doesn’t sound like much fun. I’m also always a little scared of snowboarding. On the first lift ride up, I always find myself asking “Why am I doing this?” I’m decent at snowboarding, and have never been injured while doing it, but that nervousness is still there. On the other hand, I really enjoy the feeling of flying down a nice open trail. Actually doing it always melts the nervousness away. Still, I feel it’s something that I do so infrequently that I could lose it as a hobby and not think twice about it.

Skills

I went white-water kayaking earlier this week. I’m not sure if that’s what it’s called, everyone seemed to just call it kayaking or paddling, but it was so significantly different from every kayaking experience I’ve had before I feel I need to differentiate. First off, the boat is very short – standing it vertical, it’s shorter than I am. This gives it absurd handling, which translates into poor balance in the hands of someone as inexperienced as myself. I went with Mark, who has been paddling for 12+ years, and it shows. The thing with these boats is that if you know what you’re doing, you can do practically anything you can imagine and go anywhere.

It also felt like the first time I’d really tried to learn a new skill in a long while. That is, consciously tried. That’s a weird feeling, that I wasn’t ready for. I also noticed shortly after that I don’t really have any hobbies. It’s not that I don’t do anything – I have very little free time – it’s just that I don’t really have something that I’m always doing. New things keep popping up, and I embrace them, but it has left me without anything to identify with. The only thing I consistently do is surf the web, which is hardly a hobby, especially since that entails such diverse subject matter. Definitely a weird realization.